I feel like I live on the other end of this sometimes. I WANT to be invisiable. sometimes it feels like the whole world wants a piece of me... family, work and even the borg. I work in a city and am always surounded by people, always interacting on some level... to escape to a desert island or a moutain top, to just be me and be alone....
This, this right here, sums up exactly how I feel. Family, so called friends, and even real friends, coworkers, fellow JWs, and more than anything this crazy WT religion and all the bull shit that comes with it, siphons the life out of me at times. I'd give the world to be invisible at times, just another number, or heck to even be dead some days seems like a blessing.
BP, you're alright. As others mentioned, on this message board depending on the time zone and what's going on in WT Land, thread popularity is fickle and doesn't remotely provide any gauge as to how the message board as a whole views an individual poster. As far as being invisible while in public, with the exception of people bumping into you, I say count your blessings. There's a measure of freedom that invisible people have, that I envy. There's a park that I love going to in the wintertime, and I love to sit on the bleachers and look at the field full of snow. So beautiful, so peaceful and serene, much how I wish my general life could be, free of the stresses that human relationships bring. You know, even when I was younger I would take walks late at night and make it a point to avoid streets with activity. To walk a back street at 1 or 2 in the morning is such a wonderful feeling. To be able to think, medatate, and blend in with the night, there's nothing quite like it.
Regardless BP, hang in there.
